Life Out/In the Valley


I was laid off yesterday morning (August 14th), and kinda need help w/ some things.

I’m moving to Massachusetts in a few weeks, and have a rental contract filled out, and in order to secure the room I’m going to need to pay roughly half the next month’s rent in advance. Employment won’t be a problem once I actually get up there, but the housemates I’m going to be with need to cover that portion of the rent regardless.

I’m going to be selling off a lot of electronics/99% of my recording equipment/picking up odd jobs to supplement what i have in savings so i can pay that (the rent) forward as well as book transportation for myself, but will most likely be needing assistance. If anyone could help with this, i’ve got a donation button active on my blog. Thank you.




if you’re interested, this person is trying to organize a food/meal drive for elementery school kids in Ferguson

schools in Ferguson have been closed since Monday and that’s where a LOT of the kids in Ferguson get their food from, to explain how important this is.

That links to her twitter page, this is the link straight to the fundraiser.




Fill this out.


I know a friend who had it, and its amazing. Four years of college — at any school of your choice in the United States. Harvard, University of Louisiana, UCLA — it COVERS IT.

Don’t go into debt for school, be part of this prestigious program.

Who is eligible?

African American, American Indian/Alaska Native, Asian Pacific Islander American and Hispanic American students with high academic and leadership promise who have significant financial need;

Spread this Black Tumblr. This better have over 1,000 notes by morning because this will literally CHANGE SOMEONE’S LIFE.








Gonna try not to spam this. But for those that don’t know, my girlfriend has Multiple Sclerosis and has been out of work for several months. Due to this, she has racked up some hefty medical bills, and we can’t even make the…

Please Signal boost the hell out of this!

This is my boo Dave (knockingonvalhallasdoor) trying a last ditch effort to get us some cash. I haven’t been able to work in about 4-6 months (I don’t recall the exact date but I’ve got it written down someplace) because my multiple sclerosis and fibromyalgia have blown pretty out of control lately. Dave doesn’t have a job. I’m trying to go back to school, he’s already still in school, and basically everything is terrible.

Any little bit helps. And I don’t want to offend anyone by posting this. I’m just scared and on a lot of medications i am terrified of suddenly being forced into withdrawal over all at once. Anything helps, you guys, and thank you for reading.

Jenna added to this, and clarified some issues. I’ll try to only post this like 3 times a day during peak hours. I’m sorry if this is annoying any followers but I need goddamn help and I know you guys will do what you can to donate and spread the word.

I’m still hoping to reach enough people that can help us. The last few days have been really rough and I’ve honestly been selling my stuff for us to even eat. I’ve sold most of our dvd’s, about half the cd’s (I have hard copied of all the things I really like) and almost all of my bookshelf except my favorites. I’m really shook up about this and don’t want to have to do this, but I don’t see any other way. I’m literally sick over the books especially. :(

And then there’s going to be the fun of withdrawing from all of my medications all at once, which will probably land me in the hospital, which is gonna be even more awesome because another bill.

If you can help, in any way at all, even a couple dollars, I would be so grateful I can’t even begin to explain. I’ve never found myself in this situation and it’s really stressing out my already run down and painful body. I don’t want to drive any of you away from my blog or friendship or anything. It just sucks.


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For my followers who, like me, cannot read capitalized text because it’s difficult to focus on or feels like shouting.








I just watched a kid break down in the bookstore because his books for the semester totaled $600 and that’s the american university system in a nutshell

I was on the verge of tears when I got to the cashier so yeah, that’s messed up

Go here and just, don’t waste any more money okay?

While I entirely support following that link, I also suggest going to Abe Books or Book Depository or even eBay to see if there are inexpensive print versions of books you need. I haven’t paid full-price for any of my texts while I’m in school… because that would DOUBLE the cost of school.

I use the ISBN of the require books and search the cheap sites for them.

Good luck out there, guys!

Paging FenrisLorsrai! Come work your resource magic on this post!

I HAVE BEEN SUMMONED. (but I’ll post on my actual bookstore account)

Quick anddirty meta search for books: Addall. it’ll crawl 40+ book sites at once including ABE, ALibris, Amazon, Half in both domestic AND foreign versions.

Meta search #2! which focuses specifically on textbooks. It omits some foreign sites that AddAll includes, BUT it also includes a whole bunch of rentals as well.  Renting is probably the most cost effective method overall.


First determine a few things:

  • Make sure you have the ISBN
  • IF IT IS A BUNDLE: Determine if you need a software key/CD/workbook/lab book or not.  Many times you do not.  Math classes increasingly NEED the software key, but more on that later
  • ASK THE PROFESSOR: If this is not the first edition of the book, can you use a previous edition?  One edition back is generally half the cost of current, two is generally about 1/8th the cost.  Generally you can get away with this if its material that doesn’t change rapidly. Your course on the Civil War, you can probably use two editions back. Your computer programming class on latest greatest language… you probably need newest edition.
  • FOR LITERATURE CLASSES: determine if you book is from before 1929. If it is, its in public domain, you can almost certain get a free copy online.  If they want a SPECIFIC copy for an essay bundled with book, see below.

Now, run your search by ISBN using the two metasearch sites.  Open them in separate tabs.  

gettextbooks shows you WITH the shipping, Addall does NOT show you the shipping.  keep this in mind when you’re comparing.  You’ll see a lot of duplication.  GetTextbooks will also show you SOME variants.

Now that you have those open, open two more tabs.  Run a second search on same two sites using the author and exact title you picked up from search #1.  This will show you all the international editions and weird bundles that don’t exactly match the ISBN of the bookstore

WHAT THE HELL IS AN INTERNATIONAL EDITION: its a paperback version of the US version with an angry notice on the cover saying “NOT FOR SALE OUTSIDE INDONESIA”. Its the same book, but way cheaper.  ignore the angry warning, the US Supreme Court has your back. NO, REALLY. Right of first sale, baby!  ignore the angry warning and you basically have same book, it just isn’t printed with ink made from student tears and unobtanium.

Now filter results based on whether you need any Extra materials or not. 

IF YOU DO NEED THE EXTRA MATERIALS: this is where it gets tricky. an intact bundle is generally the most expensive option or near top end of price curve.  If you NEED the other materials, you may be able to get them cheaper in pieces.  and you can buy mismatched pieces!

Say for example you need a math textbook, but need the software key for the math problem program.  The professor said you can use older book.  Buy a math book that one or more editions back and then buy the software key separately from the SOFTWARE manufacturer.  You’ll find the software keys on booksites all by themselves, but they’re generally way more expensive than buying the key direct from software manufacturer. and no shipping then!

NOW A WORD ON LITERATURE: sometimes profs want you to get a specific edition of something to read a specific essay in the book. You have about 50/50 odds that the essay is in the front of the book. IF IT IS, you may be able to read the essay on Amazon by going to that books page and clicking on the “look inside”.  They generally preview between 10-30 pages of books and that often means its the essay you needed, not the actually BODY of the book.  So you can look up the specific copy of Frankenstein on Amazon, read the essay, then download a free different version from Project Gutenberg.

FOR RECENT NONFICTION, make sure you have an up to date library card for your HOME library and the LOCAL city library where your college is.  Many have digital loans available, where you can check out the ebook for free and popular nonfiction is frequently available that way.

IF YOU CAN GET YOUR BOOKLIST BEFORE GOING TO SCHOOL: shop for the mundane things locally first.  There will be 50 people in CollegeTown looking for that book, you may be the only one in your home town.  supply and demand, if you found it in collegetown, it may be 10X price of your local bookstore.

and check you local library as well!  You may be able to check out some of those books from your local library and take them to school with you and renew them online one or more times, depending on how in demand they are.  There will be NO copies in CollegeTown library because there’s 50 people asking for it.  But your HOME town, you may be able to renew it twice since its low demand. Write on your calender when they’re due or need to be renewed.  Renew them OR tuck the whole pile into a Priority Mail flat rate box and send them home to your folks.  The cost of the priority box to send several library books home is probably way less than what you’d pay for them. (or if its stuff you know you need AFTER a break where you’ll be home, request a hold from school, pick up at home)


You determined you HAVE to buy a book and you’ve narrowed it down to a few choices of source.  Run a search for “coupon + Sitename” what looked like the lowest priced may not if you find a coupon for the 2nd or 3rd lowest priced option. Gettextbook will generate some automatically, but you may be able to find even better ones.

So make yourself some food, get a beverage, put on some tunes and compare prices!

and if you’re reached point of wanting to curl up in a ball and die, you can send us an ask with the ISBN for your book and answers to questions aobe (extra materials, previous edition, etc) and we’ll send you back an note with a link to the cheapest one we can find.  I do this for a living, send an ask and I’ll get it done usually within about 12 hours.



I’m putting these up again because apparently I failed horribly at clicking earlier tonight. And at noticing I failed horribly at clicking. And two of the banners we made got left out. Sorry!

So, like I said in the original post, I know I mentioned that we were working on a campaign to increase the variety of submissions we get.

Well, here is the first round of graphics. I know this doesn’t cover everything (even when you consider we deliberately left gay out because we have close to 70% gay stories), but it’s a start.

Feedback is welcome. If there’s an orientation/identity you’d like us to include in our next round, please let me know. We truly want to publish books that represent the whole rainbow spectrum, and we want to spread around graphics and posters that represent that.

For more details, see our submission guidelines.



ok, I’m just going to do this

My wonderful wheelchair that allows me to get around is a used chair I purchased off e-bay.  It’s great, but it’s not 100% right for me.  It’s close enough though that with new wheels I could use this chair for a very long time.

But right now because the wheels are too small for me and the hand rims don’t provide with enough grip, it’s causing me a lot of pain.  This went from being a bit of a problem to turning into the type of a situation where this could seriously limit my mobility again.  

After doing some research, it looks like my best option is to order the same wheels I currently have (round-betty dinos), with natural fit handrims.  However, this is going to cost $1000, plus there’s shipping and customs fees.

I don’t have that money right now.  

I’m personally going to be saving up, I’m going to be trying to sell my purple wheels, and I’m already trying to sell my old chair.  If I can sell those things and get the money I need, I’ll take this post down.

I have nothing to give you if you donate, and I know I am far from the most in need, so I understand if this is a post you choose to pass right now.

I’m not used to asking for help and I’m not used to taking any if it’s offered.  

But I’m at the point right now where I need to.

So if want to and are interested helping, 

a signal boost is great, 

my paypal e-mail is

you can also get e-gift certificates from Sport aid which is where I plan to buy the wheels from.  They can be sent to the same e-mail address.  (although, just to note in advance, those start at $25 and I know that’s a lot of money.  Like honestly I will be happy with $1.)

I am so thankful to those that have helped so far

and I was going to let this just spend it’s days in my archives, thinking that things were actually going to work themselves out.  But, well, that didn’t happen and I went from suddenly maybe being financially ok to back to being unable to handle a lot of this health related stuff again.

So I’m reaching out again.

Anything you can do is appreciated, thanks!

I need to make 1559.23 in 2 weeks


Okay. Story time. 

So, when I lived back in Windsor, if you were following me then you woulda known that I was in a horrible place. I hadn’t told my mom about the sexual assault i went through with my ex, all she knew about was the miscarriage.Before coming back home, my older sister stayed with me for about a month maybe a month and a half and I thought that I was doing better. but as soon as she left, I lost control again. I was sleeping/spending all day in my bathroom, not eating, my moods cycling faster than they ever had at that point. My dad broke my laptop back in December, and all I had was my cell phone. I racked up a bill that totalled about 900 dollars, mostly in data charges. How? Well, I wasn’t exactly in my right mind. I was eating 10 spoonfuls of peanut butter a day, and all i would do is sit in my bathroom over the heater,  using my phone. I can’t even really tell you what I was using it for, all I know is that for about a week, i ate like that and slept in my bathtub. Somehow I only felt safe there. 

Today my dad got a call from the collections agency, it’s rolled over to 1559.23 and if it isn’t paid in two weeks it’s gonna fuck up my dad’s credit score, more importantly than that is what he might do to me. I hate to talk like this cause it sounds like a guilt trip but honestly he’s gonna hurt me if this isn’t fixed. And I can’t take that anymore. I already am scared every day here, just hearing him walk up the stairs makes me want to hide. I can’t imagine what it’s gonna be like for me living here if I can’t fix this. I have a job interview tomorrow for something that’s pretty much a slam dunk but i gotta make too much money in not enough time. I know that in two weeks I would be able to pay half of it, around 780 bucks. The other 780, I’m gonna have to figure something else out. 

I’ve added a donation button to my blog and if you could give anything, anything at all i would love you forever. I can write you short stories or poems, i know its not a lot but my writing is all i can really offer in exchange for these donations. I’m praying that I can get to 780 in two weeks but that’s a lot of money, and honestly at this point I’ll take anything I can get. 

I’m so sorry to do this again but I’m really desperate and freaking out.


I really hate asking for donations. but, as it is, I am currently mentally/physically stuck in a house that is really, really bad fo me.

as most of you know, I went thru a pretty shite situation recently. my best friend and lover was murdered, then I lost my two partners, then I was raped by two different people in the space of a week, one of which was at gunpoint.

my work, I’m a sex worker. I’ve been trying to make myself recover enough to get back into the game, but I can’t. due to the sexual assaults of recent, I’ve been really, really unable to work. too triggering. the second assault resulted in my living with the rapist for a few weeks and it’s kind of torn me apart.

Alastair (my partner) and I are trying to get out of the house we are currently staying in. it’s my parents’ house, but it is not a place I should be in for reasons you can assume but I can’t really type out. I need to get out so I can get back on my feet and get my life started again. I want to get us a hotel for a month ($800 here for a month; criminal record means I can’t get an apartment right off the bat). if you can donate, I’d be so fucking appreciative.

please. please help us if you can. donate button is on my blog, email for paypal is either or, either one will work. thank you so much and I’m sorry to ask again, I really am. there’s also a donate button at the bottom of my description on my page. thank you.